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Chapter One,
My life
[at home]

I woke up in a deep sweat, like I always do in the morning. I was having another dream which basically relived the hell I had been through the day before. My alarm was buzzing loudly next to me, and I immediately hit the off button before I woke my foster parents. I knew if I were to wake them I'd get slapped. When I didn’t hear anything for a couple seconds, I was relieved for a moment.
"Eliana!!" called my foster dad, his name was Bill, "Eiliana, get your ass up here, you've got 5 seconds or you’re really getting it!’’,I Damn! I thought. My alarm must have woken him. I quickly pulled on a shirt and ran up to his room. Since I wasn’t one of their birth children I didn’t have a real room, I slept in the basement in a room that was supposed to be a bathroom but it was never finished. Apparently I was "graced with the privilege of having the spare room as my foster parents put it. I walked into the room and was immediately greeted with a plate flying across the room to hit me right in the stomach.
"What did I tell you about that damn clock waking me up so early in the morning?!" yelled Bill. (It was only 7 am, although I wouldn’t dare say a word at risk of more objects being thrown at me)
"I’m sorry" I uttered, staring at the floor. I’m not allowed to look them in the face because I’m not worthy according to Jane. Jane is my foster lady. Yes, my foster lady. I wouldn’t dare insult real mothers everywhere else by calling her one.
"Oh Bill, just hit her and be done with it, because I’m still sleeping damn it" barked Jane from under the covers.
"Fine, just go make my breakfast" he screamed and I quickly ran to the kitchen.
I’m going to poison him one day. I thought to myself as I got eggs from the fridge and pancake mix from the cupboards. Just then the pervert of the house dashed into the kitchen and did his usual ‘’Whats for breakfast?’’ and the ‘’hey-lets-grab-the-abused-girl’s-boob-routine’’ There was nothing I could do since nobody really cared, Bill actually encouraged it. I took their breakfast upstairs, and ran out after Bill gave his "and I want my food hotter next time" speech and struck me across the face like he usually did. It was much more painful today and I think I bled more than usual. I took a shower and got dressed. I put on enough make-up to cover my bruises for the most part, but my eye still looked a little puffy. It didn’t matter that much though, nobody would even notice at school. I grabbed a banana and ran out the door before the rest of the family got up.



Chapter 2
My life
[at school]

I sighed and thought about how long my walk was, everybody else had cars except me, I have to walk 5 miles to get to school. My foster brother, Sam, (the pervert… always offers me rides, but he would just try to feel me up more on the way there. I learned that the hard way. I sighed and prepared myself, the bad part of my day hadn’t even started yet. As the school finally came into view I grew sadder and sadder with every step I took, another crappy day was about to begin. I forced myself to keep walking although I constantly thought about running away. I shook the thought from my head as I turned the final corner and the school was right in front of me. I was walking down the hall when I saw a mob of girls circling someone...okay so it wasn’t exactly a mob but their was at least 10 girls and that, I qualified as a mob in my book. I chuckled a bit but stopped as I heard someone yelling wait.
"WAIT!!" I heard again and turned to see a kid that I was pretty sure I'd never seen before. He yelled over his personal mob "Umm can you tell me how to get to the main office?" the other girls that were encircling him were too busy drooling to answer his questions.
"Well if you can make it through all your fans you go down those stairs and make a right'' I pointed off in that direction ''There's a big sign so you won’t miss it." He smiled gratefully and I couldn't help but smile back, he was hot and it doesn’t hurt to be nice. I caught myself staring as he was carried away by his fans, and hurried to my locker.
"Well if it isn’t Eliana" said Tiffany, the head cheerleader. Your average ‘mean girl.’ As usual she was surrounded by her group. Scratch that, her pack of loyal followers. Group would have referred to humans but these girls were definitely animals. Tiffany pushed a loose strand of hair behind her ear and continued with her daily put downs.
‘’Soo, how’s my little slut doing today? Fine I see? Well I wouldn’t really care if you weren’t, so get lost.’’ She laughed. Her pack laughed. And the few guys who were following her around were laughing. It seems like I’m always the only one not in on the joke. She pushed pass me and went to class. I slowly turned and trailed after her, To bad we had the same first hour class. I took my normal seat in the back of the class and waited for one of my only best friends, Mallory. She had a twin named Morgan, we were friends too but she wasn’t in any of me and Mallory’s classes until 4th hour class.
I spotted someone come in from the corner of my eye and looked up only to find that it was not Mallory coming in late again but it was the new guy. I realized that I didn’t catch his name from earlier. He walked through the door and over to Mr. Ratsenkwi’s desk, We usually call him Mr. Rat, it’s much easier than trying to pronounce his whole name. Mr. Rat said something to him before motioning for him to introduce himself. “Hello, I’m Haiyden,” he said, with a slight stutter. His voice was deep and enchanting. The type of voice that made you feel like the only one in the room. In unison the class called back ''Hello Haiyden''. It was something Mr. Rat liked for his classes to do for all the new students. Hayden smiled and looked around for a seat. Without a second thought Tiffany immediately pushed her little follower Carol out of her seat. “Haiyden, you can sit with me if you want,” Tiffany smiled her sweet, innocent smile. He frowned, apparently seeing how she pushed Carol. Tiffany shot Carol a meaningful glance.
“Oh yeah, you can have my seat,” Carol said, sounding a bit upset “it's okay, I really don’t mind you know,” I could really hear the irritation in her voice now. But, somehow I think she was more upset that she’d have to sit next to me, more than the fact that her so called best friend just blew her off for some guy. She was about to get her stuff when he interrupted.
“It’s okay. I’ll sit next to her,” he pointed at me in the back of the room. Oh great…another reason for Tiffany to hate me. My day just seemed to get better with every passing moment, I thought to myself as he walked towards my table. I glanced at Tiffany. If looks could kill I would’ve dropped dead on the spot. Luckily my view of her was broken when Haiyden got to the back of the room.
“I hope you don’t mind” he smiled.
“Nope its okay.”
“Okay so you know my name now, buts what’s yours?”
“Oh, I’m Eiliana, yup, go ahead and laugh, I know it sounds foreign”
“Well I think it’s a beautiful name” he smiles again.
I think I’m going to ask him to stop melting me away with his smiles...
I could feel the blush creeping up my neck, so I turned my head and pretended to be watching the morning announcements on the television screen. Although my school was a public school it was extremely nice. We had a little media room where they showed the announcements live for the day. They acted like a real news station. They even had dorms that you could move into for kids who got sent here from far away, or just for kids who wanted to live there. None of us could move in until next year, since they wanted us older and more mature than we are now.
“Thanks.” I said slowly regaining my composure.
“Oh what’s the matter your ears are all red?” I turned to him. That sexy smirk on his face was killing me. I could really feel the blush this time, but suppressed it and looked him in the eye. I was lost. He had the most beautiful dark eyes I'd ever seen.
''You like what you see?” he questioned.
I was about to comment when Mr. Rat messed up my whole comeback.
“Well because you two seem to know each other so well, you can show him around for the rest of today Eiliana.”
“What?!” myself and about ten other girls asked.
“You heard me. Get up here and I’ll give you a pass for today. Since he will be staying in the dorms, be sure to show him around the dorm area.” I sat there in shock for a moment before reluctantly grabbed my stuff and heading for his desk. Damn, I thought. This is going to be a long day.


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Chapter 3
I can't believe he noticed.

I waited outside the door as he grabbed our passes for the day from Mr. Rat. He stepped outside and paused next to me.
“Where to first?” he said. I looked up at him. He’a a good 3 inches taller than me.
“Umm, how about you give me your schedule and I’ll show you how to get to your classes from the front door?” I hadn't realized how much he seemed to tower me, nor did I realize how genuinely good looking he was. What I did realize is that there was no way he would be interested in someone like me. It was impossible and I quickly reminded myself of that.
“Here you go” he handed me his schedule. Damn it…he has almost all the same classes as me.
“Well this is easy, you have practically all my classes so this won’t take long”
“Well that’s cool since we’ll have the rest of the day off after that anyway”
“Yeah so let’s get going” We talked as I showed him where to go. As it turns out the two classes I don’t have with him is still practically in the same class. For example, one class that I’m not in with him is gym but since we have more than one gym class going on in the same gym, I’m in the same room I just have a different teacher…it doesn’t matter though since we’ll be doing the same thing. In the other class we have teachers who usually combine the classes so they don’t have to make as many worksheets. Talk about lazy.
“Well I’ll show you to the dorms now but we have to go get your keys from the office.
“Oh I got them already see” he pulled out his keys and a sheet with his dorm room number on it.
“Oh okay then lets go” we walked to the dorm pretty much in silence. We rode the elevator up to the 5th floor where we turned a corner and went down to the 3rd door on the left. He put in the key and we stepped inside. He seemed amazed and I tried to play it cool since I had seen the dorms the first time I had to show around a new kid. His room was really nice and it looked like he could have two or three roommates if he wanted to.
‘’Well, this is nice”
“Yeah, it is” I replied. We looked around until he memorized which rooms were which and picked a bedroom he liked. He walked over to the kitchen and realized that although the fridge was filled it was pretty much healthy foods and my schools definition of healthy is equal to my definition of “disgustingly-scary”.
“Even though all this food looks absolutely delicious, would you like to grab a bite to eat with me?”
“Umm sure” I was surprised at first but then I thought about it and realized that he was just being friendly. Either way anything would be better than going home earlier than I had to. The house was actually mine, but I wasn’t old enough to kick my foster parents out and wouldn’t be until I was 21 which was too many years away to even think about. It was my mom’s house and the government gave it to my foster parents until I was old enough to live on my own. Sadly, my mom and dad are both dead and it really pisses me off to live in the house my wonderful parents were in and now see those horrible people living in it now. We decided to go to a pizza place close to the school. We drove in his car and the silence was intense, but everything loosened up as we walked into the place. We split a large pepperoni pizza deluxe and laughed and talked for a couple of hours. As it turns out, we like a lot of the same music and have lots of things in common.
“Oh yeah I meant to ask you, what happened to you?, like how’d you get those bruises” My jaw almost dropped open. He was the only one to realize them. Not even Mallory and Morgan had noticed. I thought of a quick excuse.
“Oh well I uhh… fell down the stairs, clumsy me.” I faked a laugh. He looked at me so meaningfully that I had to look away before I ended up telling him the truth. His eyes make it hard to lie. I looked at the wall to my right, with a huge clock on it.
IT WAS 3:20PM!
“Oh my gosh I’ve got to go”
“Why schools’ only been out for 30 minutes”
“Yeah but if I’m late to get home then I’ll be hi--…grounded. I have a long way to walk anyway”
“Well then I’ll drive you so relax”
“Oh okay then… thanks.’’ We finished the last of our drinks and headed to the car. Good, I thought to my self…I’m not going to be late. We drove in silence again but the music he had playing this time made it better. We sang along to the song and laughed as we discovered that we both didn’t know the words to a particular part of it. It was funny for our loud sing along voices were reduced to a quiet hum since singing the wrong words would be embarrassing. We pulled up to my house and I immediately felt lighthearted as I took off my seatbelt to get out of the car.
“Well I’ll see you tomorrow and don’t you go falling down anymore stairs…its not good for a pretty face” I smiled
“Thanks for the ride and I’ll try not to but I’m clumsy so… no promises” I walked up to the door and watched as he pulled away. He’s some guy alright. I think I might like hi—
My thought was cut short as I was immediately greeted with a slap in the face. Wow, Haiyden distracted me. I cant believe I was caught off guard like that. It takes a lot throw me off…
“What took you so damn long?!” bill was yelling again. For a minute I thought he had seen Haiyden before he pulled away but it just his usual ranting on about me getting home after pervert boy and his daughter. There names were Sam and Kate but somehow I don’t really like calling them by their names…its just weird since they hardly call me by mine.
“I had to walk home, I don’t have a car remember” as soon as I spat those words I wished I hadn’t. He hit harder than I think ever before and I could feel all the blood rushing to my head as I flew across the living room.
“Don’t you dare talk to me like that you little slut! Now get your ass up and go cook my dinner before I have to knock some sense into your bitch ass!’’ I quickly ran towards the kitchen and used a dish rag to wipe the blood away. “And don’t you get blood in my food either!” I heard him shout as I began to take out pots and pans. I decided to make spaghetti. Even if I had spilled blood in it he wouldn’t have even noticed. The whole time I cooked I thought about Haiyden and how he could have possibly noticed my bruises. I have them so well hid with make up that nobody can really tell. One time bill thought he forgot to hit me one day after I put on my makeup. I kept thinking about him as I took a shower and did my homework for the night. Wow. After everything that happened today he was all I could think about. I found myself tracing his name with my finger across my laptop as I signed on MSN. I only have a laptop because my school gave me one and I keep it hidden from my foster family anyway.
I kept tracing over and over again. I couldn’t believe he noticed.
I signed off and drifted into my dreams again only this time my dreams were different. There was sweet music in the background and somewhere close I could hear a soft voice talking to me. I ran toward the voice and right when I got close the face blurred, That’s all I could remember. When I woke the next morning I found my self staring at the clock wishing it would move faster so I could begin my day.


Chapter 4
His smile


I took a shower and got dressed. For whatever reason, I decided to put on something cute and do my makeup heavy and sexy today. There was no way he could notice my bruises now. I wouldn’t have even noticed if it weren’t for how much it hurt every time I moved the brush across my face to darken my blush. I ran downstairs and made breakfast. I left it in the heater so it would be hot when they woke up. Slowly I crept to the front door and grabbed a piece of fruit on my way out. Thank god I woke up on time since I officially decided to never use an alarm again. Avoiding waking them up and being hit was well worth it. As I walked to school I wondered what my day would be like. I guess I would have to wait and see. Finally my walk had ended and I was at my school. It didn’t seem to take as long and somehow the sky looked a little bit brighter this morning. For once I actually listened to the birds chirping and watched as the sun rose and illuminated the sky. I quickly went to my locker and got my books for my first and second classes. I wasn’t worried about Ashley or anybody else in her posse. My mind was clear and peaceful. I took my usual seat and watched the door patiently and intently for Haiyden. Mallory came pouncing thru the door right after the bell rung and took her seat next to me.
“Wow girly you look so cute today!”
“Thanks” I was only dimly aware of what she was saying. All I could really think about was where Haiyden could possibly be. Maybe he’s just lost, I reassured myself as the minutes went by and there was still no sign of him. I was giving up hope now. It was twenty minutes into class and he still wasn’t here.
“You know you look really happy today for some reason” I was about to disagree when Haiyden came wondering through the door looking as though he had been lost for ages and was finally reaching his goal.
“Well I think he’s affecting me..”
''What?'' I vaguely thought i heard her say
Haiyden frowned as he noticed Meghan was sitting in the seat he obviously was planning on sitting in. Mr. Rat noticed that there wasn’t really enough chairs and had to go find the custodian to find another one.
“Now I want you kids to be quiet while I’m gone okay” and with that Mr. Rat disappeared down the hall. The moment he was gone the whole class burst into laughter because everybody knew there was no chance in hell that this class would be quiet. Haiyden began walking towards us and seemed like he was going to say something, when he was interrupted by Jacob. Jacob is a first class hotty. He is a football player and one of the best on the team.
“Wow! You’re look super hot today. Just thought I’d let you know since I couldn’t stop staring and I didn’t want you thinking I was weird or something.” Jacob continued talking but I couldn’t really hear what he was saying. When he smiled and walked away I automatically smiled back. I had no idea what he had said to me but it must have been something good because half the girls in the class were staring at me.
“What was that?” Meghan kept asking me and looking at me like I actually knew what had just happened.
“I…I have no idea. Did he really just say that to me?”
“Yeah he did and you didn’t even answer him”
“Oh, uhh, what did he say?”
“He asked if you wanted to catch a movie sometime. He said he’d let you think about it.”
“Oh…wow… this is officially freaking me out now” just then Haiyden sat on the table and waved his hand in front of me.
“Well hello Ms. Clumsy how are you doing today.”
“Well for the most part I’m feeling cloudy with a slight chance of crying rain but I think I’ll live” we all burst out into laughter.
Meghan must have noticed something I didn’t and got up and went to go talk to one of her other friends. She winked at me then glanced at Haiyden before leaving. I looked over his shoulder and saw her mouthing “god he’s so hot” I mouthed back “yeah I know” and let out a little chuckle as Haiyden looked at me and smiled again…
“Well I was going to tell you that you look beautiful today but I think Jacob kind of beat me to it. I laughed.
“Well beautiful will last longer than hot so thank you very much” He smiled at me again. The bell rung and broke us out of our smiling match and we left for our next class. I can't believe it took all hour for Mr.Rat to find more chairs. Throughout the day I got at least twenty “man you’re hot” and “wow I love your outfit”. Everything was perfect that day and I almost cried when the final bell rung for us to go home for the day. Haiyden took me out for coffee and dropped me off at home. He smiled as I got ready to get out of the car but locked the doors before I could.
“You really do look nice today and you better look just as good tomorrow since I’m taking you out.” he unlocked the doors and let me out the car. I was speechless and just stood there dumbfounded for a moment. I couldn’t come up with anything to say so I simply said okay and thanks for the ride as I got out the car. I watched as he drove off in his car. I really wished he hadn’t said that because I knew id never be able to think of anything else now. I walked up to the door and prepared myself for the hell I would enter into in just moments. There was no way I was going to let Bill catch me off guard again because of Haiyden. I walked in the door and to my surprise bill was nowhere in sight. I walked to the kitchen and living room and still no bill. I decided to get started on dinner and my chores so he would have no reason to harass me today. I was almost done with the spaghetti and garlic bread when Sam (my foster brother, remember) came in the door. He looked like he was kind of upset about something and when he didn’t try and sexually harass me, I knew something was wrong. He just sat down at the table and put his head down. I made him a plate of food since I was feeling sorry for him for whatever strange reason and boy was that a BIG mistake.


Chapter 5
I promise it wont hurt


I set the plate down in front of him with a glass of milk (he drinks milk with everything because he’s stupid like that) I turned to walk back to the other side of the kitchen when he grabbed me by my wrist. I was surprised so I almost fell when he pulled me toward him. I looked up at him and he was red eyed like he had been or was about to cry.
“Umm Sam?’’ he wasn’t looking at me, it was like he was looking through me. “S-Sam let go of me”
“No” he said simply using his free hand to roughly pull me by my waist closer to him. We were about two inches away from each other.
“Sam what are you doing? Let go you’re hurting me!”. For the first time he actually looked at me. I couldn’t even speak. There was something in his eyes and it choked off my voice completely.
“Why do you talk so much? Why don’t you just be quiet and stand still…I promise it won’t hurt”
“What…no let go of me” he now had me in his arms bridal style and was carrying me up the stairs to his room. “Stop please!!”
“No” he said coolly.
I was starting to cry. Of all the times he touched me he never tried to rape me and that was exactly what it looked like he was trying to do.
He threw me on his bed and I tried to make a dash for the door but he closed and locked it and was now coming toward me. I stepped back and he stepped closer. I was completely stuck. He was like at least 3 inches taller than me and had me beat by about 60 pounds.
Damn.
I’m going to get raped.
He backed me into the wall and I couldn’t move anymore. I swung my fist at his face but he quickly had my arms pent above my head.
Double damn.
He tilted my head up to his since I was now glaring at the floor. I stared into his icy eyes
“Why are you doing this!!?”. I was practically screaming.
“Because I’m bored and my bitch of a girlfriend is cheating on me so now I’m cheating on her.”
“Couldn’t you have found someone who actually wants to have sex with you?!”
“Well I could’ve but why bother when I’ve got such a cutie here at my disposal.” He smirked as a tear rolled from my eye. “Don’t worry, I promise it wont hurt and it’ll be good”.
I took in a deep breath and he took this as an opportunity to explore my mouth…with his. The kiss was getting rougher and more passionate by the moment. He decided to use his free hand to feel around the rest of my body which I have to admit, felt good. I wasn’t a virgin but still this was only my second time and since it had been a while my body made it clear that it had been too long since the last time. I wasn’t struggling as much as I was in the beginning so he let my arms down. As much as my heart screamed punch him and run my body screamed louder to let him do it. I couldn’t move: my body wouldn’t let me. He swung me around and laid me on his bed. I watched in delight as he took off his shirt revealing his incredibly muscular top half. Now it was my turn. I let him take my shirt off. I didn’t have a bra on since the shirt I had on had one built into it. He smiled as my fully developed chest bounced a bit as he climbed on top of me. He kissed me again and this time I kissed back which surprised him a bit but he kept on kissing me. He moved from my neck to my chest making every movement slow and sweet. He had made it to my stomach and frowned realizing that he hadn’t taken off my pants when he removed my shirt. He slid them off slowly as he stared into my eyes. I felt my panties drop off my ankle onto the floor and gasped as he wasted no time getting back to what he was previously doing. He was kissing around the inside of my thighs now just to tease me. He could tell I wanted it now and smirked as I got wetter with his touch. He moved his fingers inside me and I almost cried. It felt so amazing and I let out a load moan letting him know that I was DEFINATLY enjoying his handy work. He made his way back up to my mouth and kissed me roughly as he slid of his pants.
He slid himself into me causing me to flinch lightly. He started in and out slowly and the pain was gone now. He was going full speed and I could help but moan as he used his hand to explore the rest of me not being screwed at the moment, and trust me: he didn’t miss a single spot. Things were getting heated and I was just about to scream in delight when I heard the front door open. He stopped dead in his tracks giving us both time to fully access and realize what we were doing and how it would look if someone walked in on us.
My body couldn’t control my mind anymore and I pushed his waist away causing him to slide out of me. I gasped and grabbed my clothes as I ran to the bathroom which was conveniently next to his room. I looked back at him and our eyes instantly locked. I broke the stare as I closed and locked the bathroom door. I climbed in the shower and let the hot water rinse my sweat and juices away.
I dried off and put my clothes back on as I listened to Sam stall Bill from coming up the stairs. Neither one of us wanted to be caught. I walked casually down the stairs saying excuse me to the two of them and eyed Sam to let him know it was okay to let Bill upstairs.
I fixed the blankets on Sam’s bead and lit a candle in his room to hide the smell. I walked back into the kitchen and finished serving the food before going back to my room and collapsing on my makeshift bed and closing my eyes to think about what just happened. I really couldn’t believe I had just had sex with Sam and almost got caught. I fell a sleep quickly that night and dreamt of that day’s events.
I woke up about 3 in the morning in a deep sweat and realized something. I had totally forgotten about the date I had with Haiyden tomorrow.
“How could I have forgotten!” I let the tears pour out as I finally realized that I had sex with Sam one night and was going on a date with Haiyden the next. I felt like a slut but I didn’t really know why. It’s not like I was with Haiyden but it still felt wrong. I cried myself back to sleep covering my pillow in tears I didn’t understand
The next morning I woke up kind of worried. How would I even look at Haiyden now. I felt like I had betrayed him somehow. “Great I’m never going to live this down.” I sighed as I climbed into the shower. I washed my hair with my favorite shampoo, it smelled really good and it soothed me when I felt worried. This was when something even worse popped into my head. I had sex with Sam so what if he wants to do it again. I mean what if he thinks that since I did it with him now I do it with him whenever he wants to. I sighed and stepped out of the shower
“What have I done!”. I put on a cute outfit consisting of a black low-cut sweater with a tan cami underneath which was also low-cut. I wore black skinny jeans even though I’m not exactly skinny. I just choose not to acknowledge that I have curves and what would be called a pretty awesome body by usual guy standards. I wore black furry boots that were my favorite pair of boots in the world since you could roll them up or down and they still looked HOT. I probably showed a bit too much cleavage but I guess it was alright for school.
I put on some make-up. I didn’t have to put on as much since most of my bruises were gone but there were deep red marks on my neck and left boob from last night. You could tell he gave it more attention than the other.
“Damn, when I don’t have to put on my face I got to put make-up on my neck and boobs” I hissed under my breath at the stupid realization. When I got done I looked really good. There was one spot on my neck that refused to let the cover up do its job but you wont really be able to see it unless you look kind of hard. I crept into Bill’s room to see if he was awake yet. I figured I should make what he wanted for breakfast. To my surprise he was gone. Then it hit me. This was the way he acted when he was having an affair. This was the way he acted about 3 months ago when he had his last affair. Anyway I didn’t really care. He usually left me alone when he was having an affair so I think I was even a bit happy.
“Okay one down one to go” Bill was out of the way now I just needed to stay away from Sam. I walked quietly down the stairs and looked out the window to see Hayden’s car in front of the house. He looked to the window and smiled. He motioned for me to come on and I told him just a minute. Since I didn’t eat last night I wanted to grab some fruit from the kitchen…it was either that or I was trying to stay away from him as long as possible. I turned the corner into the kitchen and damn who was sitting at the breakfast nook, Sam of course.
Damn.
I tried to turn and leave before he noticed me but just my luck he caught me just before I was going to make a run for it.
“Wait!” he yelled.
Double damn.
“U-um hey Sam…look, about yesterday…”
“I’m sorry!” he blurted out cutting me off mid sentence. “I didn’t mean for any of that to happen like that and I hope you’ll forgive me. I swear it’ll never happen again.’’
He had no idea how happy I was to hear him say that.
“I know I mess with you a lot but rape was too far and…and I’m really sorry. I know you’ll be mad at me forever but I’m really sorr-…
“Sam it wasn’t rape…I let you do it and I’m fine. There’s nothing to be sorry about.” He smiled. “Besides that at least you kept your promise.” He looked confused like he didn’t know what I was talking about. I leaned in close to his face and felt him shiver from being so close to me.
“Yep you kept your promise alright. It didn’t hurt and it was defiantly good.” I sent him a smirk before leaving him a friendly kiss on the cheek. I knew my lipstick would still be on his face when he got to school and his girlfriend would see that he too could play the cheating game. As I walked away without another word I felt his eyes on my back. He was staring and it was burning a whole in my back.


Chapter 6
Damn that tiffany


Now that I’ve gotten the thing with Sam all cleared up I hoped I could actually look Haiyden in the eye without being ashamed. Now all that’s left is to see if that’s true. I walked out the door and climbed into his car. We drove off towards the school
We were silent at first. The only thing you could hear was the smooth sound of the engine and whatever song was playing on the radio but it was turned down low. I decided not to look him in the eye. Even though I didn’t still feel bad about having sex with Sam I was still afraid to look into his eyes. Those deep hazel eyes seemed to pull the truth out of me every time I looked at him. One time in lunch I almost screamed that I was being abused when he asked me about a curious looking bruise on my arm. Yeah, bad day to wear a tank top.
Well we were getting closer and closer to the school and I could feel his eyes on me every few feet we drove. The silence was beginning to drive me crazy so I decided that it was now or never to see if things would be any different. I caught his gaze once as he was glancing at me and to my surprise nothing was different. He smiled. I smiled. We smiled at each other until he noticed the stoplight turned green. So now I was cool with Sam and Haiyden.
“Wow” I stated caught up in my own happiness. I had been so long since I could sincerely say that I was happy, but now it was very clear. My smile was genuine and for a moment I felt complete…for lack of a better word.
“Yes WOW I know I’m hot but drooling over me while I’m right here is kind of weird” his comment snapped me from my daze.
“Yes of course you’re hot Mr. Ego” from there we carried on light conversation. He walked me to my locker and waited for me while I got my stuff. For a moment I thought that my morning was the best and couldn’t get any better…and it didn’t. Because of course where there’s happiness tiffany has to come stomp all over it.
“Hi Eliana” she stated bitterly through clenched teeth. We must have been having a glaring contest because it wasn’t until Haiyden waved his hand in my face that I realized how much I was straining my eyes.
“Come on we’ve got to get to class. He grabbed my hand and spun me around toward the classroom. I started walking of course he wasn’t still holding my hand.
“Can I talk to you for a sec Haiydennnnn?” tiffany sang in her fake sweetie voice. I turned around to see what he would say.

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I sat in class practically in tears. I don’t know why I thought he’d say no to her. I don’t know why I thought he’d see her for the bitch she really was. I don’t know why I thought he’d say “no go away I don’t want to talk to you” I mean, why wouldn’t he want to talk to her? She was blonde, curvy and the captainn of the cheerleading squad. All the guys wanted to talk to her. And as perfect as he may seem, Haiyden was still just a guy. The bell had rung ten minutes ago and he was still out talking to her. Seeing as how we got here early they’d been talking a good 25 minutes in total. I don’t even know why I’m so upset its not like were going out or anything but you can clearly tell I don’t like her so why ask me on a date then let the girl I hate steal you away for 25 minutes.
I didn’t talk to him for the rest of the day. In fact I wouldn’t be sitting in his car right now if he hadn’t have caught me just before I made it to the door to leave the school. It doesn’t matter though since he hadn’t even realized that I wasn’t talking to him since he was paying so much attention to tiffany. It sucks to be mad at somebody when they don’t know you’re mad. I wonder where he’s taking me I thought to myself. I hadn’t said a word to him since we got in the car. We had free period the last hour of the day so we left early and I think he’s taking me to eat or something but whatever. I wonder how long it’ll take before he realizes I’m mad and of course I lie and say I’m fine. I’ve been doing that all my life. I don’t know why I thought it’d be different with Haiyden. So this new pasta place opened up recently and I’d been dying to go there. It’s not like I couldn’t afford it or anything since I’d been saving up money since my parents died but its over a mile away and I guess in a car it wouldn’t seem like far but I wouldn’t know since I don’t have a car. Anyway apparently Haiyden Is taking me there because there it’s the opening week and the owner is letting local bands play as entertainment. From outside the restaurant you could hear the music and It was hard to talk over it.
“So here we are’’ he whistled. “I heard from the twins that you’ve wanted to go since this place opened and I went here yesterday with some friends and the foods great…hope you like it’’
It seemed like he was trying so hard to get me to open up and say something. I guess he was just now noticing I was angry. I’m guessing the scowl that had been on my face for the past half hour might have given it away but with Haiyden you’ll never know.
I looked up at him slowly and flashed a giant fake smile.
‘’Thanks. I really have been dying to come here.’’ He looked like a load had been taken off his shoulders finally and he was smiling like he’d just won the lottery. I watched as he argued with the hostess at the front to give us a table near the front. I guess he really doesn’t know I don’t like her. I mean after all the trouble he’s going thru now, why would he have tired to upset me by flirting with her. I guess even if he did know he’s not my boyfriend or really even my friend so why should it matter. But then again he’s the flirting with me acting like he likes me and stuff, it’s not fair that he leads me on like that.
I went on like that with myself for a couple of minutes before Haiyden snapped me out of it by grabbing my hand and leading me to the very front table. He smiled triumphantly.
‘’I knew I’d get that lady to give us a good table’’
I looked up at him. I was getting lost in those eyes again.
“Seriously, I know I’m devastatingly sexy but you’re really going to have to stop staring or your eyes will get stuck like that’’. He snickered as I tried to figure out a comeback but couldn’t. It was hard considering what I really wanted to say was (I wouldn’t mind one bit if they got stuck if they were stuck on you) but of course I would never say that since…well I wouldn’t have the courage to tell him how I felt or the courage to spit out suck a cheesy line. The rest of our date, I mean dinner was great…I completely forgot about tiffany and everything else for that matter. It was like one of those times when your mind is completely focused on one thing with no interruptions or distractions. The ride home was just as fun. The deserts there were completely overpriced so we stopped at the mall to pick up ice cream from the Dairy Queen. It was good but I ended up giving the rest of mine to Haiyden because I was full and he just couldn’t get enough. It amazes me how cliché yet completely true it is that guys have bottomless pits for stomachs. I laughed as I watched him scarf it down in less than a minute.
‘’OK. I’m already late, take me home.’’ I whined.
“Aw” he cried. “But I want you to stay with me”
“But I-“I was cut off as he grabbed my hand and we walked towards the movie theater. He held my hand the entire way there and I could hear the people oo-ing and awing at us. There were mixed comments like ‘’look at the cute couple’’ and even a ‘’ aw teenage love’’. I know he heard it but he didn’t say anything he just looked over at me and I looked way. My face was bright as a tomato and there was no way to hide it.
‘’Aw what’s the matter’’ he laughed “You’re redder than a stop sign”
I ignored him and kept walking. He laughed and held my hand tighter as I tried to break away. I looked up at him confused like.
He just smiled
‘’what?..You heard them they thought they saw teenage love you wouldn’t want to disappoint them now would you, because it wouldn’t look too much like love if my love was running away from me’’
I stared at him blankly for a moment….why did he have to say things like that…surprisingly enough I didn’t get red that time. I just laughed it off as we...or actually he bought our movie tickets.
We ended up getting kicked out of the theater for talking to loud and laughing when the girl in the horror movie was conveniently running in 10 inch heels and fell. Or when she heard something in the closet and instead of running she went to see what it was.
Truth be told it was one of the best days of my life….even if that sounds cheesy too. Now if only I’d known that tomorrow would be my worst. Damn that tiffany.


Chapter 7
Am I really?


That night I woke up sick, I felt like throwing up. I rushed to the bathroom and just barely made it before I spilled. I thought maybe it was the food, but I thought back to earlier that day and remembered feeling sick just not this bad. Throughout the night and into the morning I was awoken to go puke and it amazed me how even with an empty stomach there was always more coming up. It hurt like hell. If there was one thing I hated it was throwing up. It was just a horrible feeling. Finally I just quit trying to sleep since I knew I’d just be getting up 10 minutes later to go cough up more of my insides. I struggled to get dressed but I made it to school with out throwing up and even got through my first hour. When it was time for gym I did one jumping jack and instantly ran for the bathroom. The twins, Mallory and Morgan came rushing after me. I told them how I’d been sick since yesterday but they weren’t buying that it was food poisoning. They had a different cause of my sickness in mind.
‘’Hey uh…. when was the last time you… well, the last time you had sex?’’ Megan asked shyly. I looked up from the sink.
“Uhmm not too long ago I guess, but what does that have to do with anythi-…” then I caught what they were trying to say.
‘’There’s no way’’ I shouted. more so trying to convince myself than those two. ‘’I mean I did have sex with him but…no! there’s no way I….OMG….I…’’.
I practically stated crying. I couldn’t believe it. There was just n way in hell I could be pregnant. And even worse by my, well he isn’t really related to me but he’s basically my brother…oh my gosh! What would I do if…
“Here” Morgan snapped me out of my thoughts. ‘’Just take this pregnancy test and find out’’. I really wasn’t surprised she had one with her. As much as she messes around with guys she ‘otta have one in her bra at all times. No offense to her because I love her anyway but Morgan could be a real slut sometimes.
I snatched it out her hands and went to do my business. About 3 minutes later the strip turned red and I practically jumped on Morgan.
“Where’s the box!!” I screamed “what does red mean”
“Well I don’t have the box but it means….well it means your pregnant.” I stared at her in disbelief. There’s no way.
“Are you sure?!!, are you sure it means your pregnant’’
‘’Yeah. I use these a lot and I’m pretty sure it means your pregnant’’ I stared in awe. I, Eliana am actually pregnant. I fell to the floor in tears. After about ten minutes of crying I knew it wouldn’t get me anywhere. Gym was almost over and I needed to go to class. I thought about going home but the more time I spend at that hell hole the more potential danger the baby would be in with my abusive foster family. We shuffled out of the bathroom in silence. There were no words to describe what I was feeling.

* TIFFANY’S Point Of View
I stepped out of the very last stall with a giant smirk on my face. Wow, so even a freak can get pregnant eyy? Well lets just see how much Haiyden likes his little movie buddy now. Let’s see how anybody likes her now. This is going to be good. Immediately I forwarded a text to everyone in my cell, which was pretty much everyone it school. Now just to sit back, relax and watch Haiyden drop her like the loser she is.

* Back To ELIANA’S Point Of View
I stepped into English class and all eyes were on me. I really didn’t know why so I ignored them. Whatever they were laughing at me now about wasn’t nearly as important as what was on my mind. Like what I would do when I couldn’t hide it anymore and where I would go once I had the baby. Abortion was NOT an option. Even if it would cost me everything, especially my social life (which was practically dead already.) The second class was over people flooded around me shooting out questions like ‘’is it true’’ and ‘’omg I didn’t know you were getting action like that’’. Some guy even came up to me and asked who the lucky guy was and if he could be next. For a moment I actually thought Morgan or Mallory actually said something but tiffany didn’t go to long without rubbing it in that it was her. Today was a half day because of some teachers’ convention or something so after my next class I could go home. I went the entire class without crying as people whispered all around me. I knew without a doubt that they were talking about me. All of them. After class I practically ran to my locker and out of the school but of course Tiffany was waiting for me. She walked up to me with Haiyden close behind her. She knew he was coming this way.
“So I just wanted to apologize about this whole thing” she was completely sarcastic “I guess I must of slipped up and told a couple people about you being pregnant and all. My bad” I looked at her with death eyes. I couldn’t believe she was the one who…actually I could believe she was the one who told everyone. I was so embarrassed I couldn’t even say anything. Words wouldn’t even come out.
“so its true then” she laughed and purposely said “so you really are pregnant huh?’’ just as Haiyden walked by. He looked over at me and I couldn’t even turn to face him. How could I have possibly gone from happiest girl in the universe to the most depressed and embarrassed all over the course of 24 hours? I just ran away, like I always do. I ran half way home when a sleek car pulled up beside me. Oh no…it was Haiyden. The window rolled down and Haiyden looked at me strangely. “Get in” he said plainly. I couldn’t refuse. As much as I didn’t want to be near him or anyone for that matter I also still felt weak from throwing up everything in me. I didn’t want to walk another mile just to get home. I probably wouldn’t make it. I climbed in calmly and there was complete silence the entire way to my house. I was about to climb out of the car when he grabbed my arm and stared at the floor blankly.
“Is it true?” he said brokenly. He looked up at me and into my eyes and I knew I just couldn’t tell him. I swallowed and choked out a thank you before snatching away and running into my house. I immediately collapsed onto the floor and began crying again. Was this it? Was I really…. pregnant?